As you have likely experienced, the Divine Feminine is presencing itself in a very powerful way right now, all across our world. It is long past time for the existing paradigm to shift before we destroy our planet and everything on it and the Divine Feminine is rising up again (hopefully) just in time.
Assisting in the resurgence of this presence, I believe, is a huge part of my purpose in this lifetime. But in order to be of service in this way, I have to be able to get out of my own way. No easy task.
During the last nine months I’ve been doing an intensive course of initiations in the Archetypes of the Divine Feminine. This is not simply a course of study, it is a deep dive into the experience of the shadow and light of each Deity. This month, we are working with Kali – the Creator/Destroyer/Preserver. Just looking at Kali, you know that this is a rather intense piece of work.
In this particular initiation, we had the opportunity to look at the masks that we began to wear from a very young age. For example, in order to gain approval (feel loved) and not get into trouble, I claimed the mask of the Perfectionist. If I did things perfectly, at the very least I could go under the radar and not be punished. I learned this one very well.
Another of my masks was that of the seductress – another way I learned to feel “loved”. This was always geared toward men – an attempt to substitute for my absent father.
I also learned that if I could take care of myself and be independent, I was less likely to get hurt. I can take care of myself, thank you very much. To this day I isolate and let very few in.
We made literal masks which we embodied and will later burn. But in the process, we get to experience the “fun” of having Kali show us just how rampant and prevalent these masks still are in our lives today. Kali is all about fierce love and doesn’t put up with bullshit. The opportunities to experience this have been in front of me multiple times each day so far.
Underlying all of this, we examine the duality pairs that can run our lives. For me, my pattern was that either I was selfish (as I was repeatedly told), or I collapsed into a victim state after taking on way too much for others. The Sacred Third in this duality pair is remembering that I am worthy. Worthy. Just saying it makes me sit up a bit straighter. Believing it has been a bit more challenging.
So this is where I go back to the very first Archetype that we studied – that of the Great Mother. She is Mary, Hathor, Gaia, Demeter and many others. She is fierce, loving, unconditional presence. She reminds us that there is nothing we can do to make her love us and that there is nothing we can do to make her not love us. She is the deep burgundy embrace, the rich essence of the earth. She is love. Only love.
And she is here for each and every one of us. We can fall into her arms and be held. No matter what.
My initiations continue – as they will for this lifetime. And I will continue to share my experience with you in the hopes that you may benefit in recognizing yourself in some of these mirrors.
This path has been so incredibly rewarding, challenging and comforting. The depth of gratitude I feel for this (re)connection cannot be quantified. My teaching has come through Ariel Spilsbury and Eden Amadora. Brilliant work. Bravely offered. Blessed be